Steve goes for his MRI this morning at 9:45. I don't think we'll know anything until Monday though. I just don't see it happening before then. I'm more than anxious to hear how bad it is and what our options are. You know me, I'm not the most patient person in the world as it is, but when it comes to stuff like this, I'm even more impatient!
I'm trying really hard to give this all over to God and not worry about things. How do you do that though? I've prayed and prayed about it and I've told God that I know whatever happens is His plan. I know that by worrying about things, it will not change the outcome. I know that in my heart so why is it that I still worry about it? Does that mean that I've not given it to Him? It's not that I don't have faith in Him, I do. I don't know.
Something else I really struggle with is not taking Steve's grouchiness personal. I know he doesn't mean to be grouchy with me. My gosh, I'd be grouchy if I were in his shoes, so I can completely understand it, yet I still seem to take it so personal. I hate that! I'm really trying not to. I'm really trying to remember that he's in pain and I'm sure whether he admits it or not, he's worried too. Am I just being selfish by taking things personal? Again, I don't know.
Tanner seems to have turned a corner. When she woke up yesterday she said her chest still hurt "really bad" but her ears felt better. What a relief that was!! We are still pumping her full of Mucinex, her antibiotic and all her allergy medicines. I'm just thrilled that she said her ears felt better. Hopefully that means we won't have any more dizzy/shaky spells. She made it through the day at school yesterday and even went to the soccer game after school. I'm so glad to have my girl back!
Tanner had a softball game last night. For the second time, I totally forgot to take the camera with me! I've got to remember to do that! Anyway, she didn't play the first two innings, but played the next two. She only had one at bat and she walked. She stole first base and got on second. When she was on second, the girl at bat hit it to right field and Tanner made it home. The look on her face was priceless! She was in danger of getting out at home plate, but she barely beat the ball and scored. It was pretty awesome and she was so excited that she scored! Funny thing how I didn't really want to go to the game last night. I just wanted to go home. But you know, there's just something about sitting there watching your kid play and yelling and cheering that totally changes your mood. I was so pumped by time the game was over! We won 6-4 by the way!
I told Steve last night. As much as I didn't like the coach before we started playing games(and neither do a lot of the other parents come to find out) I have come to really like him. He's hard core, don't get me wrong. In practice he comes across kind of gruff with the girls and he's defiantly NOT parent friendly. We (some of us parents) were afraid of what he'd be like on the field with the girls. Well by golly, he's wonderful with the girls during a game situation. He's so encouraging to the girls, even when one makes a mistake. He's very positive and gives lots of compliments, even when correcting one of them. I've been impressed and am pleased with the way he's turned out to be. I'm glad I was wrong about him.
Today is Friday, which means its STARBUCKS day for me! I need to get off of here and head to Starbucks before heading to work. Please say a prayer for Steve and have a great Friday!
2 comments:
Keep taking it one day at a time. Continue to ask God for gentleness and grace when dealing with Steve. And do a little cheer for yourself when you handle the grouchiness well. You will not be perfect but imagining yourself in his position is good. He certainly doesn't want you to take his grouchiness personal either. He just needs to be comfortable enough to let it all hang out. That's a lot of what marriage is. Hang tough. This is just a hard page in your lives and it will get better. And afterwards, you'll both learn how to do better next time. At least, you should make that your goal.
Every trial is an opportunity to grow as a person and together.
I can't believe Tanner can play softball in her condition let alone steal a base and make it home!
Hang in there sweetie! You have a lot to handle and what you know and what you feel can be so hard when faced with all this! I'll be praying for your family.Yay for Tanner's softball game! Sounds awesome! :)
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