Mom just called and said that Gpa isn't doing well this morning. He wasn't doing great last night but of course Mom couldn't really talk because Dad was right there with her. She said this morning Gpa is talking out of his head, mumbling and not making sense, his fever is back up and they are doing another chest x-ray this morning (they did one yesterday as well, but Mom didn't know what that showed).
Mom and I were talking and like I told her, I feel like most of the time (most of the time being the key phrase) I don't REALLY question God on His plans. I'm too the point now though that I AM questioning God as to why He's not taken Gpa yet. No, Gpa isn't in pain and he's not suffering per se, but if he knew how he was right now, he would be so upset about it! Gpa is the strongest Christian man I know-there's no doubt in anyone's mind that he's not going to heaven. He's ready to go meet Jesus-so why won't Jesus take him? Why is Gma having to watch my Gpa wither away before her eyes when she herself isn't in good health? I just don't understand. Just this morning when Tanner and I prayed together, I prayed that God just go ahead and take him.
I hope he hears and answers my (and the others that are praying the same thing) prayers.
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These are hard things to understand and to answer. We know God has his reasons, but it sure is hard for those of us who don't know why. Hang in there sweetie! Love ya! (((HUGS)))
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