Hmmmmmmm................I'm kind of brain dead today and don't really know what to say. Odd huh, me not having something to say?

Gpa is still hanging in there. My Dad said yesterday afternoon he took two bites of a hamburger, which is the first solid food he's had in a week. He also ate a few bites of sherbert.

They did a full body CT yesterday in hopes of finding where the infection is. The infectious disease Dr. doesn't know if he's using the right antibiotics since he doesn't know what kind of infection we're dealing with. Evidently the only thing that came back on it was that Gpa has a "small spot" on his lung. They called in a lung Dr. to see if it would be "worth" scoping and biopsying (is that a word?). All of Gpa's Dr's talked (including the Cardiologist) and came to the conclusion that it wouldn't be "worth" it. Dad wasn't sure what all that meant....if it wasn't "worth" it because of his age or because it's too small or what. You know men, they don't ask the right questions!

I had Tanner call my Dad last night and talk to him for a minute. I had talked to him earlier in the day and knew he could use a pick me up. What better pick me up then for your grandkid to call ya! Dad LOVED it and was in such a great mood when I talked to him later on. It was so good to hear him joking and laughing again, even if it's only for a few minutes. I guess Dad was at the hospital when T called so she asked him to tell Gpa hi and that she loved him. Dad said Gpa really enjoyed hearing that. Makes me proud of my munchkin.

Speaking of Tanner-she has called me so many times wondering how Gpa is. Yesterday we were talking and she said "Mommy, I don't want to make you mad or anything, but when Great Gpa dies, I don't want to go to the funeral. It will hurt me too much." Oh my word, my heart just broke for her! Mike's step dad died around a year ago and she went to that funeral. It was the first one she'd ever been to. She said yesterday that all she did was cry and she didn't want to do that again. I reassured her that I totally understood, that I wasn't mad and we weren't going to make her go. Poor baby girl

I only cried a couple of times yesterday, so that's progress. I still feel so sad and restless. I didn't sleep well last night and know it's because my mind is just racing. In turn, because I'm so tired, my body just achees. I'm thinking about taking a sleeping pill tonight and seeing if that helps anything. Any other suggestions for me on ways to relax?

I need to get off of here and get to work I guess. I've got a deskful of things to do. Have a great day!