Catching Up

Let me start out by saying....I have no idea what my deal is. I'm just weird and that annoys the fire out of me! I've never been a night person. Even in college, all nighters were not easy for me at all. Lately though-I can stay up all kinds of late. That's a good thing, in some ways. And then it's a bad thing as well. Well the past two nights/days, I've woke up at 4:30 a.m! Crazy, huh!? Even crazier is the fact that I actually GET UP at 4:30! The good thing is that I'm able to get up, get ready, read my Bible and have some alone time with the computer and a mug of Chai tea, before Tanner gets up. I wonder how long this spell will last?

I thought today that I'd follow up on a few things that I blogged about earlier. First though, I want to share a verse today that I read in Proverbs:

Proverbs 27:19 "As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man."

This verse just really struck me. Kind of scares me, actually. I know my heart isn't always in the right place and to think that that reflects on who I am-yea, that's not a good thing. I don't want to be known as a hard hearted, always mad at the world kind of person. I want to be thought of as a kind, gentle, loving and Godly wife, mother and child of the King. I pray that my heart reflects that, even on the bad days.

Now on to the catching up.

Let's see.......the Santa issue from a few posts back. First let me say that I love and appreciate all the comments that people left! It was fun to read everyone's opinion and how they do it at their house. Thank you so much for your opinions. Feel free to comment on this blog anytime you want. I enjoy it!

I think what we're going to do is start talking more about the spirit and history of Santa Claus/St. Nick. Because I know that my Tanner knows the real meaning of Christmas, I don't think it's a bad thing that she still believes. I'd prefer her to believe (heck, I still do and I'm 34 years old!)-that's part of the magic of Christmas. My biggest thing is that I don't want her to get teased by some kid that already knows.

In talking to Steve about it, I think Tanner might have a better idea that Santa's not real than she lets on. Because of the way our visitation schedule is, every other year we have Tanner and Chelsey at the same time over Christmas break. When this happens, we ask Chelsey to please play along with the whole Santa thing since Tanner still believes. Chels does a good job, but she's slipped up a few times as well and I know Tanner has picked up on those things. It's ok though-like I said, we are going to talk more this year about the spirit of Santa/St. Nick and Tanner will figure things out in her own time. No matter what happens, Santa will always leave gifts under the tree at our house.

Remember the make-up post from not to long ago? Where I talked about how Tanner has started wearing a little bit of eye shadow and blush and that she was afraid of what her Dad would say? Yea, well, I can't go into it here on the blog because #1 it's a long story and #2 it'll just raise my blood pressure sky high again and that's not good. That being said....Mike (Tanner's Dad) flipped the heck out when he realized she was wearing it. It didn't matter to him that she'd been wearing it for two weeks and he never noticed it. It didn't matter to him that it was so light that you couldn't even see it unless she took her glasses off and closed her eyes. It didn't matter to him that Tanner felt like such a "big kid" and took such a healthy pride in herself. It didn't matter that Mike's wife, Jill, knew about it and as a Mary Kay consultant herself, helped Tanner know what colors to wear and not wear. No matter what Tanner said or did, her Dad was not going to like it and he wasn't going to change his mind. Therefore, he told her that when she is at their house she is not allowed to wear any makeup (not even lip gloss) until she is 16. Bless her heart, Tanner was so bummed and upset, but she took it like a man and went on. She still wears it at our house and I let her wear it to school when she's at our house. I'm proud of her for the way she took it and I'm proud that she's not the type of kid that will sneak around and wear it behind our backs.

Friday I go in to have my tummy looked at through a scope. It's nothing major at all. I've always had stomach problems and my GI Dr. checks my tummy every couple of years. It's been three years and with everything that's gone on over the last five or six months, we thought it'd be best for him to go ahead and take another look. I won't be surprised if he says I have an ulcer. I go in at 10:30 Friday morning and will be home by 1:30. They put you under so I'll sleep the rest of the day/night and then will be back to normal on Saturday. No trick or treating for me!

I don't like to talk politics and I hate all the political talk/crap that's going on right now. I'm scared for our country and I fear the results of Tuesday's election. I feel like I'm in a constant state of prayer for our nation and it's leaders. That all being said-I voted yesterday and I felt so patriotic while doing it! :) Just so everyone is clear on how I voted: I voted for McCain/Palin. I'm not ashamed of that and I hope and pray that they win. I'm going to leave it at that and not talk politics anymore.

I miss my Grandparents terribly. There have been several times the last couple of days that I've wanted to pick up the phone and call to tell them something. Reality then hits and I realize that's not possible anymore. I hate that. I know they are watching over us. I know they are watching us and they know everything that's going on in our lives, but it's not the same as hearing their voices. Such is life I guess though.

My Dad seems to be doing great (in regards to losing Gma and Gpa), which is such a relief. My Mom has had laryingitis since Tuesday and is totally unable to talk. Therefore, when I call home at night, Dad answers and we talk for quite awhile. It cracks me up because this is so out of character for Dad! I've enjoyed our talks though and I enjoy hearing about my Dad's day and hearing him laugh at things.

Well, Tanner just got up, which means my day has officially started. I need to stop rambling and go get lunches and coffee for my honey, fixed. Thanks for catching up with me!

Have a blessed day!