Progress report

Matt is still needs your prayers, ya'll. He got moved yesterday to the rehab floor which is a big PRAISE GOD. They will start in on him on Monday and teach him how to get in and out of vehicles, how to get dressed, how to sit and stand up, etc. This is exciting news to us, of course. To him though......bless his heart, he's pretty darn confused still and becoming a little depressed, I think. And he's just not himself. We don't know if this is the result of the head injury or the medicine or what, but there's been several big personality changes that's happened over the past week.

He's really questioning why this has happened to him and why God would do this to him. For us (the family) we can look back and see/realize everything that God had a part in. We can see all the blessings and the sheer miracles that have been done over the last week. For Matt though, I think it's too early for him to see things that way. I think in time he'll be able to see that, but right now, he's still asking "why" which totally breaks my heart. I wish I had the answers for him.

Combine this with Gpa fixin' to die and that makes things worse. Matt would come up to KC on his days off and visit Gpa. He and Gpa were buds. When I talked to Matt the other night, he said "They'd better figure out a way to get me there next to him before he dies." I told him maybe we could get a "day pass" out of rehab so that he can go to the funeral or something. I know if he's not able to do that, it's going to make things even worse.

And of course, he's not sleeping much at all. My own opinion is that he's scared to go to sleep. Scared of what memories he may have, scared of the dark (since that's when his accident happened), scared of not waking up. You know as well as I do though, that your body needs rest and sleep in order to heal. I'm hoping that they will maybe be able to give him some sort of medicine that will relax him (they've tried a few already and it hasn't worked) enough that he can get some sleep. Maybe that would help.

I just feel helpless and I hate it. I hate that I can't make things all better. I hate that I can't be there physically, for him. I hate that we have to just "wait" for him to get better. (I'm not a patient person, remember. ) I hate that he and my sister-in-law have to go through this. I hate that even though this is all workman's comp, my sister in law is taking a leave of abscence from her job and this will affect them financially. I just want to make everything all better and yet I can't. It sucks!!! I guess all I can really do is count our blessings, pray and trust that God has gotten us through this so far..........surely He'll get us through it to the end.

Thanks.